my life

2011-11-28T07:46:00.002+08:00

别人的眼里，我们是恩爱的一对。但又有谁知道，我们之间的不愉快呢？又有谁知道我的不开心呢？

2010-05-23T23:10:00.002+08:00

NOW IS TIME FOR ME TO LET GO AND REALLY GET HEAL!!

now i only have and need to think about my school!! and nothing else!!
i'll leave everything for them to settle..

lord! you are my healer! by your name, i will get heal!!

2010-05-19T22:41:00.002+08:00

change me to become a better person

On 17/05/2010,
Something happening that really will turn my world upside-down. (Positively)
That terrible feeling the pictures of what happened that night are still inside my head. But I sure I cant overcome it.

Although I still scare, cant get rid of it sometime.
But I want to thank that it happen to me.
May be its sound very strange.
I really thank that it happen.
Although I cant focus in my school stuff .Cant do well in my ca.
But I learn to how to have a better relationship with my love ones.
(share my feeling, the situation that im in, the problem that I facing, share every things with them).
When I struggle about should I tell my mum about what happened to me, someone ask me:
“Which is more hurt? Sharing your problem/feeling with your love ones? Or you cant share with them, keeping it all to yourself?”
From that question, I found the way to have a better relationship with my love ones~

I want to thank my heavenly father, when I cried out for help, he helped me.
I know that without his permission, bad things wont happen to me.
But when it really happen, it have a reason like he want try my faith,help to grow my faith stronger or helping me to get rid of my weakness to become a better person.

Now hopefully I can get over it as soon as possible. Knowing that I will be fine~ :)

2010-05-19T21:35:00.002+08:00

The God I Know
Words and music by KC Gan, 2008

When the stage is bare tonight
There's no one else
Just You and me
When the curtains close behind
There's no pretense
I'm on my knees
I will lay down my life
For the love sacrifice
You gave to me
It's all because of You
All because of You

The God I know
Righteous and Holy
The God I know
Faithful and true
The God I know
My tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The God I know
Light of the City
The God I know
Strengthens the weak
The God I know
Your heart beats within me
As You are, so are we

This is my cry
My one desire
More of You
More of You
.....

2010-04-20T19:31:00.002+08:00

BACK TO 4 YEARS AGO~

Suddenly realize that now my life is just like 4 years ago.
Help to take care of the family-dinner,cleaning..etc~
Since my mum found a new job which she have lot of OT and work till very late.
I have been settling dinner for my family.
I miss my old life and now I have it back.
May be I will still complain about it. But like it.
Hopefully through this I will find back the “old” me too..
And once again learn how to cook..
LOL~

2010-04-19T18:36:00.005+08:00

FORGIVE & FORGET

when on my way walking home, after i brought my dinner.
i was thinking about 'forgive and forget'
i know it is hard,but we have to learn.
sometime we just have to let go our past inorder to move on~
"forgive those who hurt us, forget about the bad memories."
i really very thankful for poeple who appear in my life.
cause i have learnt lots.

2010-04-15T23:56:00.003+08:00

我不怕,我的天,因你而改变~

2010-04-14T20:15:00.002+08:00

Don't know how I am going to survival in that school for the next one more year.

Firstly, study! Is like going super fast.
Tomorrow is only the 4th day of school, and TXN is already going on the next topic.
Today is the first day of MFN.
When I got my textbook. Is like GG liao.
Wanna to change, but also scare project work will pull me down.
Really scare I can't get good result in semester.
Really is like if I miss any lesson. Is really ITE for me.
Secondly, classmate! I really don't know how to hang out with them.
Sometime, no. is most of the time; I can’t flow with their topic.
Feel like I'm too old or my mind set is difference, can't get along with their joke.
Also scare if I say or does anything wrong that will hurt them.
Today, dianto tells others that I'm a very demanding girlfriend,
(AM I REALLY A DEMANDING GIRLFRIEND?!)
And say things about the church.(which I expected)
I know he don't wanna me to be left out. But sometime the things he say really annoying.
Is like I never make fun on anything about yours and you come and make fun or comment about the thing I like/do.
Sometime I really can't take it!

Serious, I wondering what will going to happen this year~ in my schooling life~

2010-04-12T21:49:00.004+08:00

first day of my 2nd year

First day of school, is like anything much to say.
Feel that I might not do well this semester.
Because the lecturers are like so bored, wondering will I am interest in their lecture or not.
If not, it will be a very hard time for me.
The next thing I wanna to update is I become the treasurer of the class,
which can help me to gain some marks for my GPA.

Which mean now i have 3 CCAs-co-op;archery;class treasurer.

Hopefully i can manage them well..
Nevertheless, the last thing i wanna to say:

I thought I only improve by 0.5, but I found out that 2.2 is my overall GPA.
And the GPA I get for last semester is 2.6 which are above what I target (2.5).
Praise the lord!!
This time around I wanna target higher (3.3)!!

hahaha XD

2010-04-07T16:54:00.003+08:00

黃小琥-沒那麼簡單

被爱是幸福的
相爱容易相处难
生活是要互相体谅的
单方面的付出
单方面的忍受
紧记
不管爱人或被爱
不是理所当然
是彼此礼让
互相包容
只要有爱
便能转化一切的不可能
爱要懂的珍惜
幸福便能隨手可得
很簡單的道理
用心体會爱人与被爱的心

2010-04-05T15:03:00.003+08:00

I WANNA TO MARRY!!

this few days,i wanna to get marry again!! Don know WHY? Erm... may be i know.. hee..
But i know i can't get marry now :(
Firstly,both of us still schooling.
Secondly,we don have MONEY~
Haix..

wonder when is my turn~.~

2010-03-29T00:42:00.001+08:00

Today only chat with him for awhile again.

And I told him.
If next time he have nothing to chat about, don call me.
And he told me, he wants to hear my voice, that why he call me.
But I feel very blank, very lonely, is like lead of something.
May be I too look forward to chat with him,
Every time got lots of thing in mind wanna to chat with him,
But end up he like not interested, and we cant really chat very long.
May be this is guy ba. Always like that, don like to talk much.
Sometime chatting with him, I also find it very tiring.
I need to keep think out topic to chat, try to keep the conversation flow.
Because he have nothing to chat about, or don know what to say.

How can I solve this PROBLEM?!

2010-03-27T01:08:00.003+08:00

我现在好想好想马上回马来西亚!!现在就想!现在就要!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

我真的不知该如何形容我的心情!
是"怒"还是"哀"?
anthony对nat说了一切事情,还把我的部落格给了她.
打从心底,我是不怪他.也不气.
我知道他是为我好.
我知道我玩失踪,是我不对.
让他们担心,是我不对.
尽使是我的家人,我也曾那么做过.
也许这是没人能了解的.
这是我一贯的作风.
我需要一个极度安静;放松;不受干扰,并且能让我思考的环境/地方.
好让我理清我在想什么,要什么,该做什么.
理清我的感觉,我的想法~
从中也可以好好的充电.

最近也因为情绪不稳定,脾气不好.
常对人说话的语气不好,对anthony也是一样.
常常打气氛搞得很僵.
又有失眠的问题.
我觉得我快要疯了.
真的真的好想好好的休息.
把一切事情暂时先搁在一边.

我要回马来西亚!!我想休息!!

2010-03-26T20:27:00.003+08:00

Sometime really wanna to escape to a quiet place, free my mind and really take a good rest~

This is why I like to MIA.
Off my phone, don care about anything that happening outside my world.
If I still in Singapore. ;p
Living in Singapore, I feel myself living in a stressful environment.
Sometime really feel like it taking my breath away.
That is why I like to go back M'sia, visit my relatives and have a good rest.
My sing no. cant be use in m'sia, my hometown also dont have com.
Therefore going back there,
I can escape away from my parent and friends.just on my own.
spent time with myself and relatives that never see for a super long time.
So ya.. I can totally escape from my stressful life.
I can temporary stop stressing/thinking about what is happening around me.
This may be selfish. But this is how I can refresh myself.
“休息是为了更长远的路”
Rest myself and prepare for up-coming challenge or the problems that have not been solve.

But this holiday, I cant go back m'sia.
As I don wanna to go back my hometown and I cant visit esther, cause she working.. :(
So it is hard to find a way to rest.
Because I cant really off my phone, totally escape away.. =.=

How cant I find a way to really rest myself!!

2010-03-24T06:26:00.001+08:00

TIRED!

Feel very tried of things in….
Sometime really don know how to response to them.
Sometime really don feel like meeting them.
But I force myself to. Or because of Anthony, that why I was there.
Sometime I find them annoying.
I feel like wanna to ignore them,
So I wanna to MIA!!
So sorry guys who trying to contact me.
Although I still in Singapore, as I don know where to go.
But I wont be online anymore till I feel better.
And most likely I will off my phone too.

2010-03-19T13:12:00.002+08:00

平凡就是幸福.

This few days, have few people ask me:
Why I love Anthony?
Why I choice to be with him?
Even crystal asked me.
She ask why I choice to be with this kind of guy.
Not a sweet talker or a romantic guy.
Is just not the type of guy I dream of or I prefer in the out look.

While my answer to them is he is nice to me.
How nice to me?
He is nice to me, I don’t know how to explain.

Yesterday, crystal also said if I marry to him, it seem that we just will live a normal life, just like normal couple with no spark after years.
Compare to peng, is really like two difference feel.

While~ at that moment, I kept quiet.
But deep in my heart, I knew that I want a humdrum life.
Humdrum life may be too bored for me. but I know that what I want.

2010-03-10T07:05:00.003+08:00

PENG said i will let the history repeat,make the same mistake again!! once anthony don't have time to pei me!
BUT I TELL YOU I WON'T!!

HOW WELL DO YOU THINK YOU KNOW ABOUT ME?!
HOW CAN YOU BE SO SURE THAT I'LL MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN!
YOU JUST ANOTHER PART OF STORY IN MY LIFE!

although i thought of being with you forever,even after we break i still thought of that.
BUT things had change!
It will never ever happen!
after chating with you, met you.i'm sure that won't happen.
although you are my dream guy,but you are not the ONE!
I'm sorry about what i did to you!
but DON'T judge me, or say bad things about anthony!
think about what you done to me?!

2010-03-03T23:41:00.003+08:00

人哪有100%完美的呢?

他虽然不是个很细心的人,但他有他的好.

我要天天像寻宝一样,

慢慢寻找他的好~

Yesterday I brought a shirt and baked cookies

for him as a present to celebrate our 1st anniversary .
Today cooked lunch for dear.
AND ~~~~
HE BROUGHT FLOWERS AND A SMALL BEAR FOR ME!!
AND A CARD TOOO…
How sweet ~ and surprised ! #'.'#

DEAR! I LOVE YOU!! :*

2010-03-02T23:37:00.002+08:00

Time really pass very fast!
It passes so fast till you can’t imagine.

I cant describe how I feel now.
Really!!
One year!!
We have been together for one year!!
-030309-0300-
Sometime. No. Is most of the time, I not sure that I really love him or not.
Or I just wanted a boyfriend.
BUT almost all my friends said: “you really love your boyfriend.“
And when I ask them why?
They will said: “when the moment you meet me, you just keep talking about him! That show how much you love him.”
Through out all my relationship, he is the one and only that my friends said I love him a lot.
But I not sure what they telling me is real?
Because till now, I still can say I don’t know what is love? What my definition of love?
But the thing I sure of is I WANT TO BE WITH HIM!
Although sometime I keep asking myself,
WHY? He not the guy who I really looking for, he is not romantic nor a very sweet talker.
He is more to reality, also don’t know how to coax me.
Sometime I also feel that he too use to his single life till neglected me.
Which really up set me.
Have a kind of feeling, why I’m with him? Why I choice him?
He really don’t know how I feel or his just think about himself?

I’m learning. Learning what is love, and how to love.
Make our relationship work, and move on AND on!

To:
DEAR!!

Thank you for taking care of me through out the year. Be there for me whenever I need you!
Thank you for loving me! Accept my bad temper, my defect!
Thank you for forgive me, every time I say or do something that hurt you!
Thank you for appear in my life, change my life!

Dear! Our 1st anniversary has come, but there will be more ahead for us.
I believe we will be together forever and ever!! Till eternity!!

2010-02-26T13:37:00.002+08:00

headache >.<

this few days keep having headache!
think because of the HOT weather
and stress about my up coming exam ba.
headache till like my head going to blow up SOON!!

HELP!! >.<

2010-02-23T23:30:00.002+08:00

This few week super stress!!

Before CNY,
I knew that I will be debar from taking my exam.
Because of my percentage of attendant is low.
And they wan to meet my dad to talk about it.
Damn~!@#$%^&*
Like primary school like that.
Really stupid
Haix.. long story..
After I appeal, other bad new which I cant take my exam.
Which is? I haven’t paid my school fee!!

AH!
Cant sleep well! Having headache again!
Super sian~ =.=

2010-02-17T17:11:00.005+08:00

LEARNING [Being the right person]

What I know about ANTHONY:
When he stress, he play games.
When he tried, he tells lame jokes; talk without thinking; double-minded, can't make decision.

I don't like that he keep playing games, leave me alone, sitting aside watching him play. Sometime even watch till I fell asleep.
I don't like that when he tried; speak words without thinking which sometime hurt me.
I don't like that he being double-minded, can't make decision over “small things” {to him may be is big.}

BUT out of all the dislike
I LOVE him!!
He can accept my bad temper, my defect.
Why I can’t accept his?! J
So now I have to start learning~ {to accept; to know more about him; to change myself… etc}

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, and it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres.

2010-02-16T19:45:00.003+08:00

it is i asking too much,my demand too high?
OR
he really go too far?

or i just find it hard to change myself!!??

2010-02-10T22:21:00.002+08:00

Fail to control my temper AGAIN!! HATE who i am now..
this few days get angry very easy.
don know is because of stress or what.
hai..
hate myself that get angry very easy and hurt my love ones.
I'M SORRY!!!

i think that now is the stage that l have to learn to control myself and find back the "old" me.
what i use to be!!

JIA YOU!! I CAN DO IT!!

2010-02-08T00:07:00.003+08:00

busy busy weekend!!!{quick update}

4/2/10 thu
met sihui went to vivo shop
den went overnight prayer meeting till 3am.
reached dear hse at 4 plus and slept till 9 plus~

5/2/10 fri
school hang up sve,
co-op duty 12-2,
co-op meeting 2-5
cg 7-11.
over slept in train and miss all the last bus home T.T
called dad to fetch me,while waiting called weijun to keep me awake.

6/2/10 sat
archery training 9-12.
really feel like buying a bow for myself.
but don know what kind of bow i like,
and somemore i just started, is too early to buy one.
bs 2-3
meet rhonda at 2plus at expo coffee bean.
too tired till i cant pray ~.~
haix..
after that help to queue,cos don know who help to queue.
svc 530-8
sve wif paul scanlon
"kiss the frog{things you don't like to do}, and wait for the prince{things that you want} to appear!!"

7/2/10 sun
at dear hse alone cos he need to service at jurong church.
played L4D2 the whole day and never do my work..
heehee..
went out for dinner at sentosa, cos aunt working
after dinner, aunt drive us to sentosa cove.
the houses there really very _____ !!!
really rich till don know how to spent their $$.
after that aunt drive mi home!!

2010-01-31T22:59:00.002+08:00

I LOVE TODAY!

today went out with dear~
it have been a long time,since our last date.
>.<
meet at bugis,
have lunch at yoshiniya,
den shop at bugis street,
brought a jacket,cant find any jean that i like[haix...]
after that went Plaza Sing for movie. [cos dear hv two free ticket]
heee...
watch "spy next door".. that show not bad la.
bit fun; bit action~ but the NG parts very fun.
den went home after the movie,cos tml hv exam~ T.T

2010-01-28T13:13:00.002+08:00

When is my turn?

Just read Esther’s blog.
And found that her friend is married at the age of 18+.[I think]
Same feeling with esther.
How I wish I was marry too.

Last year I still have that kind of thinking that I want to marry as early as I can.
Now still have the same thought,
but additional thing like I want to have a good financial that able to support my family.
And I most likely will give myself about 6-7 years to achieve that.
;p

Seeing the friends and family around me get married and have baby.
Make me keep asking myself “when is mine turn?!”
It seen like so far away like i cant reach it.
Sometime I also will ask myself that “will I get marry?” LOL

May be I need to train myself 1st ba.
Train to take care of my family members, and how to be a good wife & mum.
Train till I really good at it and ready to become a good wife & mum.
And that's when is my turn ba~

2010-01-24T11:47:00.006+08:00

finally i'm back to normal.

hmmm...yesterday i'm finally back to normal.
started mt day super well, found a solution to all my problems.
went for my 1st cca training.
guess what is that?
i sure you will guess wrongly...
LOL.. XD

I JOINED ARCHERY!

it really very fun!
now i know why dear can keep talking about it all the time.

now i have 2 CCAs. hopefully i can balance well both of them,and study,relationship!

2010-01-22T23:03:00.004+08:00

OMG..
i really don't wanna to see him..
my thinking and my feeling really affected me.
today cg, i don wanna to look at him,
everytime a look at him, my eye balls will roll away very fast,
and i don wanna to hug him or even kiss him.
OMG!!what i gonna to do?!
i know that i still deep in love with him.
i know that i just angry.
but how m i gonna to remove that anger away?!

Dear, sorry! i know what i did today hurted you.
Dear, just give me some more time to overcome it.

2010-01-21T23:44:00.003+08:00

HOW I SUPPOSE TO BREATHE,WHEN ALL MY HEART DOES IS BLEED..

after chating with him just now.
i suddenly wanna to see him very badly.
4days without seeing him really make me crazy.
no mood in anything and to do everything.
affected my mood my life.
really goin crazy sooooonn...
missed him till have a feeling that don wanna to see him anymore..
HOW?!

i know that he need to finish up his sch work,
i know that he is busy,
i know that he is very stress,
i know i know and i know....
but i just cant stop control or stop myself thinking;
hoping that he able to accompany me.
may be i too use for seeing him almost everydays.
i don wanna to see him only at cg/svc.
i wanna a time that only belong to him and me.

may be i demand for tooo much..or may be that is just who i am~(alway have the same problem)

2010-01-20T17:27:00.002+08:00

I HATE WHO I AM NOW, I LOVE THE OLD ME.

I use to be a very independent girl;
I use to be a happy go luckily person;
I use to be a very high EQ person, a person who able to control her feeling.
But that was what I use to be ~
Now I'm stress;I'm weak, I love to cry whenever I feel sad or angry.
Now I'm scare of loneliness, when I'm alone I want to find someone to accompany me super badly.
Now I can't control my emotion, it all will be written on my face.
I HATE WHO I AM NOW, I LOVE THE OLD ME.
Can I find her back~? {T.T}

2010-01-19T17:48:00.003+08:00

what a gal need-
a heart that willing to listen to her{everythings}
a heart that cheer her up whenever she was down
a heart that alway trying to meet her need

BUT MOST OF ALL~be there for her whenever she need a company...

sometime i really feel that life is suck!
may be because of my MC make me think that or i just really feel that way.
i know that life won't goes the way we wanted,
but sometime really have a feel that i want to be in control in everythings.
control everythings everyones that in my life.

sometime i feel that is good to be single,
but i will never be,cause i scare of loneliness.
and i know that everyone have their own life.
not everyone able to company me whenever i need.{sometime i don't know who to find}
and the people that can company me is those that like want......

may be is my problem,is i don't know how to make friends. thus i only can reach out to few friends that i have now, when i was lonely.
may be is my thought that have problem.
may be......
may be......

life is suck!
life is bored!

2010-01-12T21:35:00.002+08:00

have a super long time never update my blog.

1st,busy with report,project and test since school reopen.
2nd,i also have no idea update what things....

12days after 2009,
till now i still able to plan my time well..
and i hope i can continue doin that..
{do as i planned,not i planned something and do other things at that day}

and now i found a CCA{co-op} and planning to join another CCA{may be band}
but still thinking~
for my jan,is a super boring month,as i have lots of tests and things to do...
haix..............

but this year is really my year..
y i said that..
hee is because i born in oct 20..and turning 21 this year..
that mean my birthday date for this year is 20/10/2010..what a nice number..
LOL...
and another reason is this year have a lots of holiday!!!{mar,jun,aug,sep,oct,dec}
is like having few weeks of school,den holiday liao..... XD

but still have to jia you...do well in my study.have faith in what i'm doin...

FAIL TO PLAN=PLAN TO FAIL..have to plan my time welll

2009-12-25T01:18:00.002+08:00

2009 MERRY CHIRSTMAS.....
this year is the 1st time i went to church to celebra chirstmas..
the drama was very nice..
and i have a count down in train~
tot i can go town to count down ):
sian....
=.=

MERRY CHIRSTMAS TO ALL MY LOVE ONES :*

2009-12-23T00:41:00.002+08:00

I LOVE ANTHONY~

ytd i attitude him again~
guess what?
he of cos get angry wif me.
but he did smth that make me feel very ____.
i super sorry...
for no reason again i attitude u..

2009-12-20T23:39:00.003+08:00

I LOVE THIS SONG!! [slient night]

today have listen to this song for almost 5hrs at my work place.
now this song keep appear in my mind..
when i working, i felt that he is with mi~
working together.. (#'.'#)

but this song i sang it b4 the candlelight svc.
as i have a sence of feeling that we will sang it during svc.

2009-12-20T00:27:00.002+08:00

I LOVE CANDLELIGHT SVC!!

It really very beautiful!!!
i love it!
really don't know how to tell you all how beautiful it is!
u reallly really need to see it with your own eyes!
sad that meng hua cant come,think she will like it too when she see it..
heehee..but stil have next year...and next....and next...
i sure will invite more and more friends to come...!!!

photos will be upload soooonn~

2009-12-09T13:43:00.002+08:00

Deeper in love with you.
Deeper in love with you.
I LOVE YOU more than anythings in life..
Deeper in love with you.
Deeper in love with you.
O how i love you _____.

A successful relationship requires falling in love many times, always with the same person.
Always with the same person, but deeper and deeper every time. Each time on a whole new level you together open in love and discover the truth of your beloved anew. there is no limit to the beauty of your beloved.If you think if you've reached teh end,stop generalizing.

2009-12-02T12:16:00.002+08:00

IT A BAD news & GOOD news...
Today i not sure that is i heard wrongly or it is true?
Anthony's dad tell me that anthony's grandma had pass away.
at that moment,i don know how to react.
& at the sametime i care about how anthony's feel..
i'm bad in console people.sometime i really felt tat im useless... ;p
through what i writen on top,all of you sure know waht is the bad news le.
you all sure wonder what is the good news..
actually is the same news.
but y i said it is a good news,
well...
cos anthony's grandma have released from her sickness,from her pain.
and to beautiful heaven.
no more suffer for her..

have no idea how to continue.......
hmmmm....

ALLL I WANNA TO SAY: treasure the ones that you love!珍惜眼前人!!

2009-11-29T04:54:00.005+08:00

just reached home from movie"NEW MOON"

It have been a long time i never blog liao..
heehee
today was a very great day!
hmmmmm
went JB meet esther,brought a shirt for anthony as a birthday gift.
;p like is alot,tried on it as it is free size,scare he cant wear..
but after trying i love it! if he cant wear i will wear IT!! LOL XD
after that me,ying and esther hv lunch at wang jiao den went to svc!
Today sermon is damn great! teached me how to be like caleb...
wait for the time to come;work hard and fillful my dream...and be a giver >.<

after svc we went airport to fellowship den watch at PS= "NEW MOON" very nice show... I WANNA TO WATCH AGAIN!! hahaha who wanna to watch with me!!!!

2009-11-16T18:08:00.003+08:00

加油!努力!!
我曾经疯过,
我曾经傻过...
这使我更想要一个普通平凡;平静的生活...
我会好好加油!努力的!
现在的我更加了解;清楚自己想要的是什么!!
要向目标往前进~~~~

2009-11-15T13:44:00.004+08:00

I have a wonderful day,yesterday.
heehee....
went k with my sis...
we sing till 3 den take bus 12 to chc~
and when we reached, met rhonda at foyer3.
she pass me the birthday cards which is hao-wen & yuan rong.
cause next week is their birthday. (:
and a gift for junsen{she say tat gift is just for fun}
she wanna mi to pass the cards around to them to write.
the callenging part is i cant let the birthday girl and boy know anythings about their birthday{like the card etc.}
but till the end i don know the card have pass till where untill they give the cards to the birthday girl and boy..
LoL..
for junsen's gift,rhonda wanna me to decorate the box..
and after drawing it came out very nice!!
haha...i like it...

after svc,we went to siglap's "hong kong xin wang"restaurant to celebrate their birthday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! HAO WEN & YUAN RONG!!

and when i reached home,i have a great night night chat with my sis..
hmmm...think this is the 1st time,we chat like that ba..
haha...sound bit sad or like i never chat with her before.... =.=

2009-11-14T00:22:00.004+08:00

I'm learning how to love him;fear him;and have faith in him!!

LOVE SOMEONE THAT YOU FEAR OF,YOU WILL BE FAITHFUL TO HIM!!

2009-11-09T17:25:00.004+08:00

I GOT 65/80 FOR MY IAC(accounting) CLASS TEST!!
this is the 1st test i took,
everytime when i know there is a test i sure will skip that lesson...
hmmm.. so this is my 1st class test.
althought i never score very high,
and made a few careless mistakes...
but it is a motive tat i can do well in my coming exam on this friday!!
cos with understanding i can get 65..if i put more heart into it..
i sure i can score well de..
heehee..
soooo~~~~ JIA YOU BA!!!

2009-11-06T22:57:00.003+08:00

WHY BAD THINGS LIKE TO COME AT THE SAME TIME!!

sometime really wanna to die,
by seeing what happen to others & me..
really make me feel this world is sooooo meaningless...
for what reasons to live in this !@#$% world!!

but for one or another reasons i still alive..

2009-11-04T00:02:00.002+08:00

DON'T KNOW WHY!

TODAY I MISS HER ALOT..

JOJO~ T.T

2009-11-03T23:20:00.003+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
pic that took by church's friens,esther & adam
total 75 photos~~~ XD
bit bored but i anjoy it ver much..scare ppl & scare by them tooo....
LOL...
and got ppl took pic wif mi,esther & ying when we on e way home sia...
haha~

2009-10-04T11:14:00.000+08:00

让爱放个假!!

让爱放假去咯~让爱放个假其实是件好事.尤其是对像我,这种贪新鲜感;容易喜新厌旧的人来说,更是一大考验.
让爱放假,可以更清楚的知道爱人在自己心中的地位,的重要性.知道自己多么的爱他.

这次我让我的爱放了两个星期的假.虽然中间还有和anthony联络;见面,但我发现了很多东西.就好像寻宝,找到了很多不可思议的宝藏.还记得不久前我还说了很伤他的说.对他说我对这段感情腻了.因为天天和他见面,天天做着同样的事情使我渐渐腻了.而他也非常在意我说的话.
但放了个假后,我发现他在我心目中占了多重要的位置,我是多么的在乎他.
在malaysia的那些日子里,我好想他.虽然没带着戒指,但我不时还是会玩弄那带着戒指的中指.这样的动作使我更想他.还有28sep我回来时,他病了,发高烧.还看到他手上黑一块青一块的(因为他的CCA camp).我看到后心好疼!眼泪也不自觉的要流下来,但我把它忍下去.那瞬间的感觉是我从来都没感觉过的…当时我就发现我是多么在乎他的……

所以说让爱放个假!
对我而言是让一段感情可以”从新出发”,找会最初的感觉~
同时也可以让自己有多一点的私人空间…去寻宝~

2009-09-20T13:00:00.002+08:00

Hehee..it have been very long since my last post.
Wanna to update, but very lazy.. haha~
Goin back Malaysia tonight liao.
Dear! I will miss you de! But will try not to contact you!
Don’t MISS me hor~ XD ( I know you won’t miss me everyday de right?)

上个星期,康牧师说的道是要对上帝,对伴侣,家人,朋友,甚至对老板要诚实要忠诚!
那天他用”路得记”书,为我们讲解为何要诚实要忠诚.如何对上帝诚实,忠诚.
书上所写的是”路得”是怎样对她的婆婆忠心.即使要她离开她生长地到一个她完全不熟悉的地方从新开始她也愿意.
在书中她说了5点是我们应该向她学习的:
(无论是对我们的天父还是对我们所爱的人都要如此)
1) “where you go I will go” 愿意一起成长一起改变
2) “where you stay I will stay” 专著在他所专著的地方
3) “your people will be my people” 拥有共同的朋友
4) “your god is my god” 不要分你我,而是我们
5) “where you die I will die, and there I will be buried” 愿意跟随,致死

在这次的讲道中,使我明白该如何对待我爱的人,尤其是对我的伴侣..

mean of his words

2009-09-05T01:17:00.003+08:00

近来身边的人还有自己都在谈爱情的东西.更多的人一直渴望爱,渴望被爱.但爱有很多种,最简单的分别是”真爱”;”假爱”.
”真爱”;”假爱”可以断定一段感情的长久性.

何为”真爱”,何为”假爱”呢?
假爱是两人在一起时是有目的的-想在对方身上得到好处或因为对方的一些"外在"条件而和他在一起.或可说是自私的爱:不理会对方付出多少,只在乎自己付出多少,对方对自己多好.
真爱是两人在一起时可一起共患难.可以接受对方的缺点.会很注意对方的一举一动,在意对方的喜怒哀乐.不计较付出多少,不要求回报.换句话来说是无私的爱.

我曾读过一本书,有句话我觉得他说得很对.
“若你真爱他,当有人问你为什么会和他在一起时,你的回答会是{男}因为她很美,很可爱!{女}因为他对我很好!”而不是因为他很有钱,她学历很高,之类的"外在"原因.
为什么作者会那么说呢?因为他认为当一个男人爱上女人时,是因为她的美,她的可爱正如他意.而女人会接受男人的追求,是因为那男人对她的好正是她需要的.
女人会因为爱人对她的好而使自己变得更美,而男人也会因为爱人变美而对她更好.
作者的爱情逻辑是我非常同意的.

可是爱情是个善变,多变,使人有错觉的东西.它可同时拥有”真爱”;”假爱”.
我会那么说是因为当正恋爱的两人是分不清楚的.除非一开始就有的目.那可以肯定是假爱.
而我花了三年的时间,牺牲的不少东西才明白这一点.也发现原来我过去几年来,谈的都是假爱.因为我都想从他们身上的到某样东西.当我发现得不到时就是=那段感情结束了.
可现在和anthony这一段,我还不知道我有何目的.[或可以说是我忘了]
哈哈~最好是忘了或想不起想从他身上得到什么东西,这样我和他就可有共同的目标了.

2009-09-03T10:25:00.000+08:00

Love is like playing the piano..

First you must learn to play by the rules,

then you must forget the rules and play from your heart...

(from riz's blog)

2009-09-02T00:37:00.008+08:00

要爱情还是面包?
Love? Bread?
This is the question that the Taiwan show “王牌CEO” I watched today.
After watching, I also asked myself this question.

For me, I think I will choice both. hee…
Agreed to the side that choice “love”..
Cause I believe that so long as there are true love in the relationship, there will surely have bread.
I believe that in a relationship which has true love, they will work hard for their future no matter what happen. (:
Oh ya! There are two phrases I learn today from the show-
“真爱不会利用别人的爱!”
“1+1=2 自己一个人幸福,两个人在一起要更幸福. 如果两人在一起,其中一个不幸福.不如各有各的幸福”.

你是我的真爱还是面包?~

2009-08-13T23:21:00.002+08:00

2nd day of work...
new arrival..almost busy every single min..
til 915pm den off..met dan n do my work..
end up he take hm to do..
lol...
during my working hours,dan came to my stall lor..
n during lunch time,
mi saw adam and he oso came to my stall to saw hi to mi..
know wat he say to mi.."wat a cute gal, in a cute stall"
lol...

3rd day of work
busy day tooo...
packed,counted and take out all the hard tag of those items that need to be return..

busy..busy..busy..my legs very pain!!!

n i oso haven my sch work!! how!!

2009-08-11T23:00:00.002+08:00

1st day of work..
SUPPER BORED!!
standing thoughout the whole afternoon(2-9),til my legs ver pain lor..
damn sian..n nv ate my lunch n dinner..supper hungry after work.
don know how long i can tahan..
tml still need to work....!!!!

JIA YOU!!!

haix...i need to save lot lot of $$$...!!!

2009-08-09T13:46:00.003+08:00

finally have time to sit down,update and edit photos liao..

060809

ytd esther baby came to find mi..
cos i told her that i will skip sch go jb to find her,cos really miss her lots..
end up she came back to sing on wed n stay over nite at my hse
den the next day, we went to jb.
reached jb around 1 plus, went to my fav "place" to hv our late breakfirst and lunch. den is our shopping time!!
brought one jacket and t-shirt...den esther's pa fetch us to esther's sch
cos i wanna to colour my hair..
after tat went shopping again..
brought some make up stuff and "dan wen bing" which anthony wanna mi to buy de..
den went to esther's hse and hv my dinner den her pa drive mi home...

haix... ):
don know when will meet esther again..
hopefully she can pei my home(alor star) (:

2009-08-02T21:37:00.004+08:00

tml is 3/8/2009..
is the 5th months of our relationship..
time had pass so fast.
it seem ver long but short tooo..
LOL....don know my language is correct or wrong..
heehee..
i never find myself get tried being wif u but...
find myself more & more in love wif you..
care abt every things u do & every words u say.. :p

continuous meeting u & chating at my aunt's hse after the 1st time i went to CHC,get caught by wendy ,get u in to trouble, cried infront of u cos of my past & the pass away of my great grandma.the day that i receive jesus into my life.the 1st time u give me a small doggie doll doll..1st time u give me flower n bearbear..went to sentosa.don let u play dota..shop for rings.brought our rings..................................................................etc
felt lik all those things just happen ytd.

DEAR!
thank for being there for me when i need u.
thank for takin all my nonsense.have tantrums without cause toward u.
thank that a have a chance to know jesus again.that really change my life a lot.

the last thing that i wanna to say to my deardear is:

()""() _____DEAR!_____( )" ")

( 'O' ) _______I_______( (")(")

(,('')('')__LOVE YOU!!___( ,('')('')

HOPE WE WILL BE TGT FOR THE NEXT 5 YEARs...10 YEARs..20 YEARs...

and the last thing i wanna to say: HAPPY 20th BDAY!! CHC!!!

today woke up super early{5am} just to went indoor to celebrate CHC's bday..it was damn fun..haha..enjoy it ver much.. XD

2009-08-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

haix..
this few days have been very emo..
don't know becos my MC or what lor..
had attitute anthony a lot..
feel very sorry for him.
{T.T}
he say i have change,not like last time liao lor..
haix....don't know how to answer him.
and today he say me 'fan'..
said when wanna me to talk,i don't talk...................
{T.T}
last thusday,he joke wif mi said 'go away' becos when he playing game, i called him '蠢猪'.
i felt very angry, & don't wanna to talk to him.
don't know why & when i started to hate he say 'go away'.
and then.... i made him cry! cos he toooooooooo STRESS!!
haix..

SORRY! DEAR!
BEEN ATTITUDE TO YOU FOR SO MANY TIME!!
I WILL TRY TO CONTROL MYSELF!!

2009-07-29T08:45:00.003+08:00

Xiaoxinn got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that every little part of you is magical.

Yes, even the parts that hurt, even the ones that are feeling disease right now. It's alright to love what is in pain. More than alright, that's exactly where your love is needed the most. So why not touch that part that hurts and smile at it, at yourself through it, and whisper: ''I love you.''

I will move on with the pain in me and learn how to love it.

2009-07-28T08:28:00.001+08:00

曾经,有人问我是否有恨过一个人?恨一个人的感觉是怎样的?
而我那时的回答是,我有恨过但我已忘了恨人的感觉…..

昨天不知怎么的想起了那时的话,也想起了我恨的那个人------伟俊
我恨他!!
恨他夺走了我的初夜!
恨他把一个单纯的女孩变成一个放荡的女人!
恨他改变了我的生活!
恨他把我当成廉价流莺!
恨他对我所做的一切!
恨他轻视女人!
但我为什么说我忘了恨的感觉呢?
想了想,记起当初为什么选择忘记,选择原谅…
因为我要证明,没有他—我会过得更好!
这两年来,我虽然过得很好,但和鹏一起的日子也没有太大的改变,性生活更是变本加厉.
虽然过得开心,但我发现我变得越来越讨厌,我恨自己的改变.我不喜欢自己的改变.
和Anthony在一起也有一段日子了.虽然跟他没什么更近一步的发展,但也没完全离开性.
希望和他在一起,可以使我变得更加好.使我更爱我自己……

我是曾经恨他改变了我!后悔当初为什么点头!
使他提早改变了我的生活…
但现在的我不在恨他了,因为恨他也没用.,难过的只是自己.辛苦的是自己.
现在的我反而很感谢他,因为他的对待使我更爱我自己.
我也很感谢鹏的出现.他把我从伟俊的手里救起,他也让我了解我要的是什么… (:

愿能与Anthony长长久久….

2009-07-27T10:01:00.002+08:00

Tracy got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that you can only give away what you already have inside yourself.

True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share. When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open. There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out. If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you've missed the first step of filling in your own Self with these emotions.

现在我明白了!!我之所以感到累是因为我的爱还不够,无法和更多的人分享,无法帮助需要的人.
天父请赐给我力量,圣灵请教导我,使我更像耶稣.

2009-07-22T22:25:00.009+08:00

Do my guai guai look like me?
haha~
Have nth to do,

so took some pic wif my guaiguai..

heee..we emo-ing tgt.
Wahahaha~
LOVE u "GUAIGUAI" >.<

think ppl who read this will think i'm SIAO...LOL XD

2009-07-20T16:10:00.002+08:00

我不知道为什么男人对于性会看的那么重要,.
我的意思是, 对那些男人而言,性与爱似乎是那种可以分开来谈的东西.
而更常见的情况是: 有性的时候不一定有爱, 有爱时则一定会有性.

我知道这听起来很可怕,但却是事实.

相对而言,女人在这方面往往表现得情绪化,更有不少女人认定能给一个男人性就表示爱,或是一个男人之所以会要求床上关系是因为爱.

我曾经也是这样的女人,认为爱=性.或许现在我还是吧~
但经历了那么多事,我明白了一点: 男人和女人对性的想法是不一样的.
性似乎对我而言是可有可无的.
但自从接触到性之后,我有时会讨厌自己的行为,讨厌性生活.
很后悔当初为什么要给他
讨厌归讨厌,现在的我明白我是再也离不开性生活了.
就连anthony也不例外, 我想也是迟早会发生的事.
我不知道我现在能怎么做,或该怎么做.
我想脱离性生活,但同时也渴望性生活.
这样的我好矛盾哦!
那个才是我真正想要的呢!?

2009-07-20T00:06:00.002+08:00

On this day of your life, Xiaoxinn, we believe God wants you to know... ...

that faith is exactly what it takes to get through uncertainty.
Faith is not necessary when you know how things are going to work out, - that's knowledge. It's in the time of unknowing that having faith is what sees you through to the other side. Faith is what gives you strength. Faith is that light in your heart that keeps on shining even when it's all darkness outside. Now is the time to keep that faith alive!

this text is from fb di~

2009-07-15T10:01:00.004+08:00

爱是天堂;爱是地狱!
爱可以让人美丽一生,
因为爱滋润他的一切!
爱可以毁了人的一生.
因为爱燃烧他的一切!

爱是天堂;爱是地狱!
爱可以像甜品般甜蜜,
使人吃在嘴里,甜在心里.
爱可以像咖啡般苦涩,
使人喝在嘴里,苦在心里.

爱是天堂;爱是地狱!
爱可以让人从获自由,
因为他学会了怎样爱己爱人.
爱可以让人关入心牢,
因为他放弃了怎样爱己爱人.

爱是天堂;爱是地狱!
其实天堂;地狱只是一线之差而已.
要如何对待;如何看待,全因自己……

2009-07-07T01:22:00.002+08:00

这两天的天气,仿佛如我的心情.
“分手吧!如果明天会下雨.”
读了那篇故事后,感觉老天爷似乎也在叫我放下.
是时候放下了…
也许是因为看小说的关系,想得特别多.
那天和他见面后,再次的确认我对他再也没任何感觉了.
但不知为什么有时还会放不下.还会哭…
但现在的我只能选择放下.
因为只有放下,才对另一个他公平.
只有放下,才能真正的过新的生活,走新的人生路.
但我要花多长的时间才能真正的放下呢?
已过了十二点了,先在是7/7/2009了…
没想到我跟他的6/7/2009是这样过的….
虽然我说了那么多次,但我还是要说…..
“这次真的彻底的跟你说再见了!”

2009-07-01T13:06:00.002+08:00

Ytd's drawing, bored at home.

so do some drawing..

LOL..

Long time never draw liao.only can drawing some simple de.

heehee... ;p

2009-07-01T12:17:00.004+08:00

我的心好慌;
我的心好累.
谁能了解我的慌;我的累?
在那某年某月的某一天,
我的心已死...
我不停的呼唤他,
却发现他离我越来越远.
我不停的寻找他,
却再也看不到他的踪影.
谁能帮我找回我那棵善良的心?
谁能帮我找回那天真无邪的心?
随着现实的残酷,时间的摧残...
我的童心走失了,
谁能把他带回我的身边呢?

2009-06-29T12:43:00.005+08:00

关于天平的友情和人际关系:
'朋友'二字对于天平有多重要是一般人不能理解的。这么说吧，天平把友情看的重要。因为天平是一个特别害怕孤独的星座，天平不会享受孤独。每个天平都有轻微的抑郁症，孤独就是诱发天平抑郁症的罪魁祸首！而抑郁症的最大特点就是厌世，这绝不是危言耸听，孤独就是能让天平产生厌世的感觉。天平是活在人群中的人，只有在人群中天平才能找到自我的位置发挥自我的价值。所以天平总是希望自己的朋友多些在多些。对于自己不喜欢的人，天平虽不愿把他当做朋友但还是希望对方能把自己当成朋友，但凡是天平认识的人天平绝不会轻易得罪。为了维持这种和谐的关系，天平不的不圆滑一点虚伪一点，见人说人话见鬼说鬼话。其实天平真的很累的。绝大多数的时候，天平的朋友受到伤害和委屈了，天平总是第一时间出现在朋友旁边安慰和关心朋友，给朋友以最大的鼓励，但是当天平受伤时却很少得到这样的待遇。换句话说，天平的朋友看上去虽然很多，但是知心朋友却很少，能了解天平内心的更始微乎其微。天平对每个朋友都很好，而且都是一样的好，以至于大家都不知道天平对谁是真心真意对谁是虚情假意。天平一生都致力于创造一个自己心目中理想的和谐的美丽新世界，在那个世界中没有明争暗斗，没有尔虞我诈，大家都是好朋友，所有人都互相关心，互相照顾。总之，天平对朋友是最无私的，宁愿天下人负我，我不负天下人是天平对于与朋友关系的最好的一句话概括。如果你有朋友是天平的话，那么你应该感到幸运！

天平座的爱情
天平在爱情方面是一个为别人而活的星座。天平的被动更是让很多天平们错过了自己的真爱。天平不懂得拒绝，天平面对一个自己明明不喜欢的人，只要那人能主动积极一点，那天平是不会拒绝的，因为天平觉得拒绝会伤害你。为了不伤害你，天平只有牺牲自己。或者，天平会为你对他哪怕是一句关心的话而感动，就为了感谢你这句关心的话而和你在一起，因为天平永远都是追求平衡的，他认为你付出了哪怕是一句关心的话他就应该回报你，而不是真的因为爱你才和你在一起。(感动不等于爱)而且天平将'责任'二字看得太重，却又未认识到'责任'的真正精髓所在，以至于用了一种对自己极其残酷的方式给'责任'下着定义。天平不爱对方，却要坚持对对方不离不弃。这是一个力求公平的天平的善良抉择，更是一个近乎愚蠢的抉择。这是天平的悲哀。只能说天平懂得负责任，却真的不理解 '责任'。可是懂得负责也变成了一种错误吗？天平认为责任比爱情重要，却未想过幸福也同样重要。你完全有理由责备天平，但是在你责备天平的同时可曾想过其实最可悲的正是天平。天平的要求真的不高，只是需要有人理解自己而已。但是，谁又能理解天平呢？

还有一点，天平在爱情方面
确实是比较优柔寡断犹豫不决，这点必须承认。但是天平为什么会这样？因为天平想的事很多想的很远，天平觉得如果要爱一个人就要让对方快乐。这里说的'快乐 '包括很多，比如说有没有足够的经济能力来维持平时和你在一起时的花销，能不能让你每天都开心，自己的朋友和父母会接受你吗？你的父母朋友能接受自己吗？甚至可能会想到结婚以后你们孩子的模样漂亮吗？。。。。。等等，还有许多问题！你说天平能不犹豫吗？天平是出了名的12个星座最懒的，如果不是因为爱你天平根本懒的考虑那么多！如果天平一旦确定你就是他深爱的人并且确定了你们的恋爱关系以后，那么这时候天平追求完美的一面就展现出来了。
这时的天平满脑子就是想如何做到最好。让你觉得自己是世界上最幸福的人。和天平恋爱过的人应该都知道这一点吧，刚和天平恋爱时的感觉简直太完美了，一些只有在电影和小说里面出现的情景会经常出现在你们身上，你会感觉现在的你真的就是世界上最幸福的人。这时的天平只要每天能看到深爱的人开心一笑就算付出在大的代价也愿意！由于刚恋爱时的天平表现的太完美了，以至于对方已经习惯了天平的这种完美表现，这在对方的心理已经是对天平的一种标准，所以天平只要稍稍表现的不够以前好，对方就会不习惯，就会觉得天平不爱她了！可是，这个世界上谁也不可能永远都做的这么好，天平也不能，虽然这时天平依然深爱着对方！对方的抱怨让天平觉得自己很委屈，自己付出了那么多对方却还不满足，还说自己不够好，所以天平就会觉得自己的付出不值得，到最后当然就只剩下分手！

在这里给所有天平朋友一个忠告，细水常流，平平淡淡才是真，
不可能每一天都是完美的！烟花确实绚烂，但是注定短暂！这里在特别说一下天平男。天平男花心吗？也许吧。但是所谓天平男的花心又和其他人不同，最原则性的不同在于天平男的花心跟爱情本身不关。所谓天平男的花心应该理解为是一种博爱。天平男认为世界上一切事物都是美好的，而女人更是这个美丽世界中的一个个艺术品。所以女人是要用来好好呵护的，与爱无关！这是天平男一种怜香惜玉的本质。这种本质是天平与生俱来的，是根深蒂固的。天平真正意义上爱一个人时是和那种怜香惜玉的爱是有本质上的区别的。天平真正爱上一个人时，天平在心中会把爱人奉为自己的女神，不仅有爱，更多的是一种尊敬甚至崇拜！反过来说，天平面对自己真正深爱的人时内心会有那么一点小小的自卑。这里的自卑不是平时大家所说的因某种缺陷自卑，这种自卑是相对于'完美'二字来说的。大家也许会怀疑，自信又自恋的天平也会自卑？是的，因为天平面对爱人的时候总希望自己做到完美，但是天平不明白完美只是一种传说一种境界，世界上没有人是完美的，天平也不能，所以这时天平就会产生自卑感。要求完美的天平对自己的不完美很不满意，觉得自己配不上心爱的人，所以很多天平宁愿选择放弃(其实天平在对方心目中天平已经很好了，只是当天平深爱一个人时鲜前。但是放弃不等于不爱。天平对自己深爱的人是一辈子都不会忘的。放弃对天平来说另一种爱，天平会永远把深爱的人深深埋在心里的某个角落默默的为对方祈祷祝福！天平不是因为寂寞才会爱上一个人，天平是因为爱上一个人才寂寞！
天平对于自己内心真正的想法很少
对人倾诉，因为天平深知沉默才能坚强。所以，除了天平自己之外没有人能真正了解天平，除非你来生有幸作为一个天平时用生命来体会一次。。。。。。不管是谁对谁错，一切的过错都由天平背负着，任由人们误会，任由人们无端的指责甚至漫骂，天平只是轻描淡写的一笑而过，在人前永远保持着优雅的微笑。一切是命中注定，无需多言，我们即然是天秤，太懂得去分析事情的轻与重，善与恶，真与假了。所以说对于本身也是一种负罪吧。因为都看透了。对于真不真心，懂的人自然了解，不懂的人也不想再多说，因为我们是天秤，骄傲的天平！传说中有位骑士名叫天平，英俊，迷人，优雅，高贵。。。。。。黑夜中，西风吹过;白马上，骑士仰望星空;手中有剑，心中有爱，骑士正在为他心爱的人祈祷平安幸福！夜，还是那么黑。路，还有那么远。人，还那么寂寞！拍拍身上的灰尘，振作疲惫的精神，抚平疼痛的伤口，远方也许尽是坎坷路，骑士却仍然微笑着上路了---> 虽然心碎了无痕，

found it when i answering the quiz in fb~
it really tok alots abt mi !
who im!!
supper agree abt what person had say!!
every words that he say really say out who im!!

2009-06-23T21:28:00.006+08:00

爱是五颜六色的~
当你坠入爱河时,
爱可以是热情的红色; 安逸的绿色; 甜蜜的粉红色; 心冷得发颠的可怜白色; 永恒的蓝色; 甜蜜的橙色; 平凡的灰色; 嫉妒的紫色; 孤寂的黑色...

我的爱是什么颜色呢? {#'.'#}

2009-06-20T13:31:00.002+08:00

昨天和鹏聊了半个小时的电话.我发现我该是时候放下,在这样下去,苦的只是自己而已.
昨天的聊天,让我发现我们的想法真的太不一样了.在苦苦的纠缠又何必呢?更何况我身边还有anthony,我不可以在让他因为这件事而伤心难过了.我该放下了,不要在迷恋过去,勇敢的往前走.就把那份爱藏在心里深处的回忆箱里.不论将来回发生什么事,我要勇敢!虽然还是有想很多,但我不能在这样下去了!我不可以有嘴巴说别人,没嘴巴说自己~

new day;new start!!

Au revoir~! peng~!

2009-06-17T00:28:00.009+08:00

好累哦～
刚刚哭了～
哭了好久好久～
我想我哭了一个小时多吧～
我还是放不下鹏！在心里某处还是爱着他的！
只是忘了拥有天使那面的他。
刚开始，我还认为我可以潇洒的放下。但后来我发现我办不到。
我该怎么办！？现在我能做的只有不停的哭吧~
想到我和鹏的过去,这两年以来发生的酸甜苦辣
就忍不住的想哭!
舍不得鹏的同时,我也觉得我好对不起anthony哦!
我怎么可以同时爱着两个人呢!?

16/06/2009 9点多，
鹏，他提出分手了。
一句“我们还是比较适合做朋友。”结束了我们两年的感情。
两年了，说断就断。我还真的很舍不得。
鹏，他也一样。
但他很大方的选择退出，成全我和anthnoy。
他认为他暂时无法给我幸福。同时也知道了我做了很多很多对不起他的事。
所以分手对我两来讲，应该是件好事吧～

我真是个坏情人！
为什么那么说呢？
因为我的心里同时住着两个男人～
我好自私，好坏。。。
我无法放下鹏，也无法全心的爱anthony。
我真的不知道我该怎么办！? T.T

TO 鹏
对不起！我伤了你的心！无法全心全意的对你。
做了那么都对不起你的事情。
忽略了你，冷漠了你～
我的自私，令我把过去的幸福的感觉忘记了。
也令我忘记了当初保护我,爱惜我的小天使。
才会酿成今天的局面。
对不起～鹏~
谢谢你～！谢谢你选择的放手，还我自由。
真的非常感激你！我爱你～
再见了～鹏
谢谢你,这两年来的照顾:关怀;还有爱~

TO anthony
Sorry. There is another person in my heart that i cant let go.
I cant give my whole heart to you.
Sorry.for the things that i done.
Don't treat me so nice.
is not worth it.
I not good at all.
but thank,dar!
thank for alway being there for mi when i need you.
I LOVE YOU~!!
dar!give me sometime to heal myself~
sorry for being so selfish.. );

2009-06-15T03:18:00.001+08:00

剪不断;理还乱..
what i really want? what i need to do?
who can help me?!

2009-06-14T23:08:00.003+08:00

finally changed my blogskin liao..
wanna to change to a brighter skin.
but very hard to find one that suit mi n i lik it..
haix..in the end.
used a skin that a bit emo..but nice..cos i lik the pic..
hee...
hope he never think too much... :p
NOBODY is hurting me!!

2009-06-04T21:51:00.006+08:00

昨晚我又发神经了!
又开始胡思乱想了!
我把anthony弄哭了~
我好想非常喜欢把男孩子弄哭啊~

昨天是我和anthony在一起的第3个月了.
他在3/6/2009,00:49:38时分,发了个msg给我.
"Hey dear!!!Guess wad it is today? I think u noe rite? Finally our third mth is here... 3 mth down n 9 more nths to go to a yr. :] can't wait for it to pass! Dear hope this 3 mths u had a great time with me because I had. With u around with me this 3 mths I learnt a lot of things from u n this make me more willing to look after n being with u more :*:*:* can't wait to see u ltr(heart)"

"Muackx.. I LOVE YOU! DAR! U r so sweet! Muackx..this 3 months i also had a very great time with you! If really can,i wish to see you everydays,spending all my time with you!but don know you will get bored about me or not?hee...arh...i have you.."

他发给我的msg,我看了好多遍哦~
看了又看..直到我眼眶泛泪 =.=
对了!说回我胡思乱想些什么东东.
我和他有近一步的发展了~
[不要想歪歪哦!还没到那个地步=.=]
开始害怕他会不会和其他的男人一样,
我真的觉得他跟其他人不一样.真的!
但又害怕,害怕一切只是假象..
第二点,我觉得我对不起他.
因为在我心中还有另外一个他!
我无法放下鹏!我已分不清我和鹏的关系了
我不知道我和他还是情侣或只是朋友而已.
我觉得我好自私,我好贪心.心里同时住着两个男人!

Anthony和我在一起好像有不少的压力!
对不起!
anthony!sorry that i make u stress~
&
THANK YOU PRAYING FOR ME!

2009-06-03T10:13:00.004+08:00

TANK~阿门
作词：蓝小邪作曲：TANK

请赐给我一颗不会熄灭的星

请赐给我一朵不被淋湿的云

请告诉我的眼睛再等一下就是黎明

请别笑我每天都要跟你谈心

请赐给我一颗不会受伤的心

请赐给我永远用不完的勇气

如果还能说下去请让我在这黑夜里

相信明天一觉醒来是个好天气

*我不要飞来的运气也不用比别人荣幸

只求当我在谷底还有力气疼痛的哭泣

荆棘中还能辨认来时的脚印

我不求变成个奇迹也不用开创天或地

只求我最迷茫时还能找到最初的自己

如果我痛到必须要闭上眼睛就看见你 {go to @}

原来每一颗星熄灭才会再亮

原来每一朵云湿透天才放晴

原来一颗心受伤是爲了要更有勇气

原来勇气因为失去才有了意义 {go to*}

@流过的泪留下运气受过的伤都很荣幸

下一次跌落谷底就该知道躺下看山顶

何不替眼睛谢谢所有的风景

我存在就是个奇迹你为我创造天与地

你让我不断迷路直到找到真正的自己

原来只要我能看见我的真心就看见你

2009-06-02T19:54:00.002+08:00

today danm tired sia..
wake up at 630.met adeline at 730 cos that sotong forget to take her ez card.
hiax..don wanna to tok much about her liao..
in the bus,that **driver keep saying mi n adeline tokin very loud lor..
wanna to quarrel wif him sia.
but lucky for him,mi wearing school uniform.(super angry)
is like i just beside him la. that y will be abit loud lor.i don think the ppl from the back can heard lor.
he say till lik the ppl from the back oso can hear.
keep wanting us to keep quite.=.=
n den the worst thing is when i take bus home,is the same driver again.. =.='''
THE WORLD IS REALLY VERY SMALL!!

today napfa result:
2.4km-think around 20 min[fail]
long jump-163cm[E]
shorter run-1.22s[E]{nearly fall down =.=,if not i can do better de lor}
pull up-22times[A]{the only A i get =.=''' }
sit up-21times[E]{actully i cheated only around 13times}
sit & reach-40cm[C]

after napfa,went to simei to eat my lunch.
wanna to eat KOBAYASHI de.
but the shop close down liao.
Sian~~ =.=
den we wait til 11,eat KFC.
after that mi went home liao..
rested til evening jiu start study for BEV til ver sleepy~~
sian~~when come to study alway will feel ver sleepy after awhile!!

2009-05-29T11:46:00.004+08:00

她说的那个人是我吗?

我的直觉跟我说那就是我!

若真的是我!我能怎么做呢?

我想我什么也做不了吧~

被别人说成双面人已不是第一次了!

我想我还是不懂得如何待人!?

我渐渐的开始不喜欢去学校了!

天天面对所有的不愉快,面对着不想面对的人.

我快变回以前的我了!

我该怎么办?

如果她说的那个人是我.

在这,我向她承认我是有说过她的坏话~

那是我在不知情下,对她们产生的敌意,误会.

现在我大概知道了整件事的来龙去脉.

对她们的误解也解开了.

我不想成为任何人的敌人.我不想被误解.

但谁能告诉我?我可以怎么做?我该怎么做?

星期一,我该怎么办?!

2009-05-28T08:53:00.001+08:00

ytd BEV lesson,
teacher had ordered pizza as breakfirst for us.
so derrick start to took photo n post it on fb.
den me grad n save it..hee..

2009-05-24T19:18:00.002+08:00

22 may 2009!!
super fun day at night safari!!
too bad never c my lion family!!
heehee~~
is more fun den zoo lor~~

den we went to c show at 1030.

all the animals like not guai at all lor..

lol~~

may be they too tired liao~

after 3 shows~~

den i reach home at around 12plus.

junsen wanna lent mi $$ to take cab home lor.

cos i told them i take cab home cos i miss the last bus =.=

n my dad will pay for my cab fee..

they scare my dad wil score mi..

really have alots of fun at night safari~~

hope will have another trip to there again!!

2009-05-21T22:17:00.000+08:00

爱上一个人不需要靠努力，只需要靠「际遇」，是上天的安排，但是「持续地爱一个人」就要靠「努力」，在爱情的经营中，顺畅运转的要素就是沟通、体谅、包容与自制(面临诱惑有所自制)。有许多人总是为「际遇」所迷惑与苦恼，意念不停、欲念不断、争逐不散，爱上一个人不需要靠努力，只需要靠「际遇」，是上天的安排，但是「持续地爱一个人」就要靠「努力」，在爱情的经营中，顺畅运转的要素就是沟通、体谅、包容与自而忘了培养经营感情的能力才是幸福的关键。所以不要去追问到底谁才是我的Mr. Right或Miss Right，而是要问说在眼前的伴侣关系中，我能努力到什么程度、成长到什么程度，若没有培养出经营幸福的能力，就算真的 Mr.Right或Miss Right出现在你身边，幸福依然会错过的，而活在犹疑与遗憾当中，这不就是许多「爱情虚无症」的遭遇与心态吗？

若你此刻已有一位长久相伴的伴侣，不要再随便三心二意地犹疑了，我们往往不易察觉感情中的一个陷阱，就是「近亲生慢侮」，也就是经济学中的铁律「边际效益递减法则」，跟你在一起越久的人，就越容易麻木与忽视，而新鲜的「际遇」总是那么动人可爱。

在感情对待中，难免有摩擦与无心的伤害，而且论得罪自己的次数累加起来最多的人，当然是跟我们在一起最久、最亲近的人。而新欢呢，又还没开始有得罪你的机会，再加上他的刻意讨好，所以新欢怎么看怎么可爱，旧爱怎么看怎么讨厌。但别忘了，新欢身上总是有不确定的未知数，旧爱身上就是有难得的熟悉感、确定感、信赖感。千万不要随便在偶然的「际遇」中迷失了自己，错放了幸福温暖的手。

萧伯纳言

2009-05-14T21:19:00.003+08:00

today spent 4hrs to perm my hair!!??
super long sia!!
n had missed 3 lesson!! (LLA,PE & BEV)

before perm~~
after perm~~
look like alex the lion again!!
[LOl~~never put some make up.look very black n ugly lor~~]

2009-05-12T23:35:00.003+08:00

和他在一起已2个月09天了.

很多人都很担心,他和我会发生事情.

他们会担心是因为我们常到对方的家睡觉,还睡在同一张床吧... =.=

但~~2个月了,他都没对我怎样.

要是别的男人,一个月都不到历史就从演咯!!

不知道为什么!?我总觉得他和其他的男人不一样.

真的!!我无法保证以后他会不会和他们一样.

但现在至少他不一样.

和他在一起的日子,总是开心的笑...也许是刚开始吧!

但无论是什么原因,现在的我每天都好期待见到他.珍惜和他相处的时光.

无论未来怎么样,我感谢上天让他走进我的生活里~~~

感谢上天让我遇到这样的一个男人~~

2009-05-10T23:31:00.004+08:00

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着
——纯纯的“对不起” 。

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。
—— “对不起”的快乐。

大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

—— “对不起”也是一种承诺。

婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”
—— “对不起”，谎言的开始。

渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。
—— “对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽…… 许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。
—— 这样的“对不起”太伤人。

男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。
“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤.
离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了.对不起，我想我是真的累了。”
男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。
—— 原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……
千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……
把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起......

2009-05-07T21:32:00.002+08:00

"Mamamiya"
"Better in time"
"Dancing queen"
"Ain't no mountain high enough"
"Mercy"

stil got lots more songs to learn lor...
haix..
super tired.. =.=
now the onli thing i wanna to do is slp~~~~~

today in a ver bad mood..
don feel lik tokin at all...
don know y...
may b too tired le ba..
haix....
n today ver blur..lik soulless lik tat...
think really need to find sometime to get a good nice rest liao..
if not think i will go mad soon!!!!

2009-05-06T22:44:00.002+08:00

今天CHOIR有学新的歌了!!

"AIN'T NO MOUNTAIN HIGH ENOUGH"

我还满喜欢这首歌的,好听!! (:

真的要加油咯!!

ADELINE!我们一起加油哦!!

今天,我对她的态度又不好了.

她又在提起他了,因为FIONA和我们一起回家.

而她没听过ADELINE的事.所以他坚持要说.

真拿她没办法!

跟她说过至少在我面前不要提到这个人.

希望这样多多少少可以帮她忘记他.

但看来只要她还想活在过去,没人能帮到了她!!

还有~~今天,我和班上的同学一起吃早餐!!

还和他们一起吃午餐呢!!

哈哈~~~

感觉还满好的.好久没和同学相处了.想想有两年了吧..

天啊!!我居然独来独往了两年的时间...!! {=.=}

sorry!doggie!sorry that i cant pei u when u need mi!!

u will alway here when i need u!!

sorry! i cant do the same thing to u!! {T.T}

2009-05-05T21:24:00.003+08:00

HIAX...

我好想和他们一起去看电影哦!!

好久没看了!!

但是我不能,因为我实在太累了!!

没办法!!

我啊!!累到到CP LVL2的厕所睡觉咯!!

有够搞笑咯!!

睡了一个小时多..然后去CHOIR.累死人..

今天,学的是MERCY的舞步..

我想要我在一个月学好12/14首歌和记到舞步.

是天大不可能的事咯!!

这几天,我对ADELINE的态度有点不好.

也许,可能因为这阵子发生太多事了吧!

一次过来,真的有点受不了!

天啊!!救救我吧!!

2009-05-03T22:28:00.003+08:00

昨天刚从马来西亚回来.

这几天,发生了好多事哦...

不管是在感情上,家庭里,还是学校..

闹得我还满精疲力尽的..

好累哦~~

不知道为什么有些人活到半百了,

还是那么幼稚..

有些人的一举一动,

令人无法理解..

昨天,听一位来自美国的牧师跟我们讲道.

他是位导演,也学过许许多多的剧本.

昨天,他述说了一个爱情故事....

故事是说一位牧师如何付出他的爱.

他是如何包容他的妻子[妓女],她做了许多对不起他的事情.

但他还是包容她,原谅他....

听着听着,自己也好奇,我的他会原谅我所犯的错吗?

他会不在意我的过去吗?

若我做了对不起他的事情,他会像那故事里的牧师一样原谅我吗?

但人那有那样的伟大吗?!

伟大的是上帝,是耶稣....

我想只有他们才会原谅,包容我所犯的错吧.

想着想着,我又emo了.

想起以前的事,想起我做过的事情...

想着一些有的没的的事~~~~

2009-04-25T09:35:00.003+08:00

为什么为什么!!!
为什么你要走得那么突然!!!
那天才看到你能走能吃..嘴巴还是那么的会念人...
为什么突然就离开了!
为什么!!
这世上的种种事情真的很难预料!!
所以我们真的要珍惜身边的每一个人!!
不要把事情当成是理所当然的!!
不要在失去了才后悔!!
\
刚才我刚接到妈打来的电话,说我的太婆走了!!!
我真的不赶相信,也不愿意相信!
那天回去看到她人还好好的!!为什么那么突然就.....!!!
我恨不得现在就赶回去,但我不能!!
因为我们的PR还没做好!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

太婆!!
虽然你走了!!
去了一个很遥远的地方!!
再也不回来了!!!
但我为你感到高兴!!
因为你又能和太公在一起了!!!
你们两永远会活在我心里!!!

"我爱你们~~~!!!!!!!!!!!"

2009-04-23T00:33:00.002+08:00

希望她的伤口能愈合!!!

希望我借给她的书,能帮到她!!

其实她的人品是不错的,

热爱帮助人,但表达的方式不对吧!

所以也许有些人无法接受!

可是人是有缺陷的,是不完美的!

我们必须接受她.... (:

2009-04-21T15:10:00.002+08:00

OMG!!! sobsob T.T my mum just told mi that my great grandma went to hospital!!! hope that she wil b ok!!!!

jus now my grandma jus called n said that she in ICU use oxygen tank to breath.

HOPE SHE WILL BE ALRIGHT!!
SHE STILL HAVEN DRINK MY TEA!!!

2009-04-19T00:21:00.003+08:00

做好你的本分！！！

别管我其余的事情！！！

我的事情我会自己搞定！！！

不用你操心！！！

我知道自己在做什么！！！

你无需干涉！！！

2009-04-15T19:21:00.002+08:00

阿桑不幸因乳癌而在6/4/2009誓死!!!
听说她今年即将结婚了!!
但婚还没结就.....
真替她感到难过!!
她是我其中最欣赏的歌手..
她是一位很好的歌手,个性很好..
她的声音很沧桑,就如同她的名字....
''叶子''是其中一首非常动听,人人都知道的歌..

当我在当天的报纸读到她去世的消息时,我真的很惊讶,难过!
还哭了..有够傻吧...
可是现在好多了,不会哭了.
所以才可以post下来我对她的思念..

想想当时还在msn和anthony说她的事,还介绍她的歌给他听..
虽然他完全不认识这个人 ;p

2009-04-04T10:49:00.006+08:00

_____I __________________________________________

______________MISS _______________________

_________________________YOU!! ___

2009-03-31T21:49:00.004+08:00

真是不容易的情懷

一名署名約翰衛斯理的人寫了這樣一個故事。

一對夫婦在婚後十一年生了一個男孩，
夫妻恩愛，男孩自然是二人的寶。

男孩兩歲的某一天，
丈夫在出門上班之際，
看到桌上有一藥瓶打開了，
不過因為趕時間，
他只揚聲妻子把藥瓶收好，
然後就關上門上班去。

妻子在廚房忙得團團轉，
就忘了丈夫的叮囑。

男孩拿藥瓶，
覺得好奇、又被藥水的顏色所吸引，
於是一飲而盡。

藥水成份厲害，
即使成人服用也只能用少量。

男孩OD（Overdose服藥過量），
被送到醫院後，返魂乏術。
妻子被事實嚇呆了，不知如何面對丈夫。

緊張的父親趕到醫院，
得知噩耗非常傷心，看兒子的屍體，
望了妻子一眼，然後說了四個字。

作者叫讀者猜，
這丈夫說了四個甚麼字？

答案是：
「I love you, darling!」

這反應是 Proactive 的
（即反過來控制局面，而不被局面控制）。

作者亦盛讚這丈夫是人類關係的天才，
因為兒子的死已成事實，
再吵再罵也不會改變事實，
只惹來更多的傷心，
而且不只自己失去兒子，
妻子也失去兒子。

這故事，
彰顯人類選擇的自我層次，

同一件不幸事你可以怨天尤人，
痛罵社會，甚至自責無窮，
但事情卻不因這些而改變，
這一切只改變了你和日後的生活，
負著疤痕的活下去。

反之，
放下怨恨和懼怕，
放下過去，勇敢的活下去，
事情的境況原來並不如想像中壞，
這就是作者所說的
Proactive Behavior，
也就是我們所說的由人轉境，
而不是被外界事物牽著走。

很簡短的故事，
但是，有多少人能做到呢？
當我看到那句
' I love you, darling! '
的時候，
心中感概萬千......

多麼簡單的一句話，
但要有多久的修練，
多大的包容，多深的人生智慧，
才能在那種時刻
說出如此令人動容的一句話。

每個人都有不想讓人所知的不幸事，
自己選擇了什麼方式去面對，
又怎麼去面對未來，以及週邊的人事物...

與你分享
也祝福順心喜樂！

1.
遇到你真的愛的人時
努力爭取和他相伴一生的機會!因為當他離去時.一切都來不及了....

2.
遇到可相信的朋友時
要好好和他相處下去因為在人的一生中.可遇到知己真的不易

3.
遇到人生中的貴人時
要記得好好感激因為他是你人生的轉折點

4.
遇到曾經愛過的人時
記得微笑向他感激因為他是讓你更懂愛的人

5.
遇到曾經恨過的人時
要微笑向他打招呼因為他讓你更加堅強

6.
遇到曾經背叛你的人時
要跟他好好聊一聊因為若不是他今天你不會懂這世界

7.
遇到曾經偷偷喜歡的人時
要祝他幸福唷!因為你喜歡他時.不是希望他幸福快樂嗎？

8.
遇到匆匆離開你人生的人時
要謝謝他走過你的人生因為他是你精采回憶的一部分

9.
遇到曾經和你有誤會的人時
要趁現在澄清誤會因為你可能只有這一次機會解釋清楚

10.
遇到現在的伴侶
要百分百感謝他愛你因為你們現在都得到幸福和真愛

2009-03-22T11:45:00.003+08:00

WTH!!
haix..
昨晚我失眠了.
睡得很不好...每各1小时就醒一次!
就因为我看了'coming soon' =.=''
还打电话给dorian,crytals还有kang ming.
一直聊到妈出门,大概早上6点才睡.
haix...
10点就起身了.再也睡不了了!
好累哦!
真后悔去看,不过那部戏还满好看的.
不像esther或我弟弟说的那么不好看. ;p
真的是没事做,花$$吓自己!!
哈哈~~

等下就要出门,唱k了.晚上还要meet anthony.
不知道今晚我还敢睡吗~~~?

哈哈~~~~
haix~~~
那个鬼的样子,我还忘不了啊啊啊啊啊!!
{ T.T }

2009-03-18T21:45:00.003+08:00

hee...
这几天，我都有点忙，所以没时间，也没心情post前几天发生的事。
因为发生了一些事令我的心情特差。

上个星期六事dexter bb的生日，我们在他家楼下bbq。
^_^
还有游泳呢。。
很好玩，bbq完了就游泳；游累了又bbq；
一直重复。。。
哈哈～～

星期一，就meet esther 和他的朋友。
而。。。好像是don的生日。其实我忘了他的名字了。 ;p
我们在游戏场所玩水枪， =.=
冷死了，外面又下雨。真的是冷的咯！！
哈哈～～
然后，他们就去踢球，而我就坐在一旁看。
他们踢到6点就不踢了。
而我和esther就去meet kenan,terry和alvin看dragon evolution.
hiax..
那部戏不怎么好看。。

然后今天，我和peng去jb买东西，
heehee...
我终于买到包包了。
而且是很大的。。
哈哈。。
也买了隐形眼镜。
然后我们还到旺角吃。
hmmm...好久没到那里吃了。
真的好怀念哦。。
好好吃哦 ^_^

2009-03-09T10:57:00.004+08:00

今天想用华文写下我的心情.
因为我觉得这才是我.
华文才是我的专长.
为什么那么说呢?
因为有时候,英文无法表达我想要说的东西.

今天,我的老毛病又犯了.
我又开始想动想西了.
haix....

首先是tryson...
他今天就要出国读书了.
祝他一切顺利,一路顺风. (:
"对不起!
我无法去找你,因为我不知我该怎么面对你.
对不起!
我一次又一次的失言.
对不起!
就当没认识过我吧!
我们之间是一段孼缘.
你把我忘了,对你而言应该会好过一些吧."

再来是zavier...
三月的放假后,我在也见不到他了.
不知道该喜还是悲.
我和他现在是什么关系.
我自己也分不清.
见不到他也好,
这样就少一件事来烦我了.

最后是anthony...
hmmmm....
和他的相遇,相识,相爱..
不知道是不是对的.
认识一个月都不到,就和他在一起.
我和他毕竟是来自两个不同世界的人.
这样的结合,这样的一对,是对的吗?

2009-03-08T14:16:00.002+08:00

hv nth much to post today..
hmmm..
think jus post some of the things happen in the past few days.

4 march 2009 thurday
anthony came to my hse at round 10.
n he is late cos don know which lrt to take..
LOL..
my hp siao,auto off.
make him unable to contact mi..
til mi found my hp off le den he can contact mi lor.
mi went to sengkang lrt find him.
he slp at my sis bed cos she hv camp.

5 march 2009 friday
wake up at don know wat time..
mi forget liao..heehee...
esther called to meet up to eat breakfirst.
but is more lik eat lunch.
at first anthony was comin along wif us de.
but suddenly he need to go back to work.. ):
haix..nvm..
not ver upset wif it cos work is more important.. ;p
den at nite meet lawrence at downstair n chat.
leave esther at my hse..
LOL.
sound lik mi ver bad..but i m not..
is she don wan to came wif mi de..
chatted til 12 den went hm to slp.
n woke by esther again at 2.
cos someone called her again..n she cant slp..
haix...
大人真麻烦!!

6march2009 saturday
pei esther go tm 'reds' cut hair.
at first mi oso wanna to cut de.
haix..but no $$..
n met anthony at 4..
went walk walk awhile den go expo.
after that went to bedok inter to eat dinner.
after that went to cathy to watch movie.
this the 1st time lik so many ppl went to watch movie together lor..
wanna to guess how many ppl?
.
..
...
....
.....
......
.......
........
.........
..........
is 31 ppl lor..
WTH!! rite?

the movie end at 2 plus n mi went to anthiny hse to slp..
heehee..
1st went to his hse..
hmmmm...
his hse ver big sia..

think i wil stop here ba..
hmmmm...

to be continue~~~~
LOL~~~

2009-03-03T17:30:00.002+08:00

hv met anthony non-stop since sat..

sunday nite~
met him at nite around 11 plus ba{if i not wrong}
went to mac chat.den at my aunt's there til 5 pls in mornin den go hm.
woke up my aunt when i try to lock the door.
n she tot i wanna to go out..
LOL...!!!

monday morning~~
woke up by dexter baobeii cos he wanna mi to pei him go childcare.
after that pei grandma eat breakfirst.
til 12 den can go back room n rest til 2 plus.
ate lunch,sing k at hm til 6 plus den go back rest again..
n woke by anthony's call at 7 plus..
ate dinner,watch 'bedtime' til 12 plus n met him til 5 plus again..

tuesday 12am~5 + am..
hv told him abt my past..
hmmm...
n he said he don care abt my past.
it was a ver ver windy nite lor.
ver cold lor.
heee...n mi wear his jacket (# '.' #)
erm..his jacket ver big lor..
n something happen ytd..{hmmm..more lik something was goin to happpen}
hee..
hmmmm...
wat i can say is he ver cute..
really! he ver cute..
is lik i hv never meet tip kind of guy lor..
hmmm...don know how to say lei..
he........

2009-03-01T12:20:00.004+08:00

ytd was a ver fun n tired day.
lol...
chat wif andy til 3 plus den slp.
n wake by esther at 6 plus,cos she cant slp.
{wake by her friend at 4 n chat til 5 plus,den she cant slp that y wake mi up..}
haix..
n she went back to slp at 8 plus.leave mi awake.
poor thing mi only slp 4 abt 3 hrs lor..
feel tired but cant slp back.
n esther den wake up abt 1 plus 2.
den wait 4 my mum buy lunnch 4 us.
n dress up went to tm at 4.
esther brought a wallet 4 xiong n we went to eat '小龙包'
after that i went to meet anthony,late 4 his churh.
that was a ver fun churh,ver diff from what i had go b4.
they tok abt 'women n men base need' which was ver interesting topic.
the churh end at 8 plus,n anthony,his friends n mi went to airport to take our dinner.
all his friends r ver friendly but too bad i ver shy,ver quiet.
don dare to tok much..
hee.. ;p
oh ya..
is lik almost all of them speak english de lor..
den went to met peng watched 'marly n me'
this movie make mi miss my ex dog sia.
n mi cry when marly die.

{JOJO!!I MISS YOU!!}

oh ya..ytd when i reach hm.i cried again..haix..don know when i wll stop b a crying bb..i really don know what to do..sometime i really ver ver tired of it.

Y! Y! Y I CANT JUS LET IT GO!